My journey through hell & back. With abuse from an early age, the anxiety, OCD & panic took its place. My heart was throbbing like crazy, I got dizzy and lost control of my own body - this was my very first panic attack." darkest secrets and emotions. 30 years of extreme OCD, anxiety, PTSD and depression. How can you detect child abuse? How to cope with OCD and anxiety? See the bigger picture? "What can I do now, to help others? I can always be honest."